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October 17, 2012

Dr. I have lost my phone.

THERAPY SESSION IN PROGRESS


So I lost my cell phone - yes I realize this is not a major catastrophe but there are underlying issues (aren't there always?) I have come to realize!

From the beginning:  So yesterday morning started off pretty normal, progressed actually pretty slow for me until after lunch kicked in to high/normal gear!  Around 9pm I was sitting in line at the Taco Bell drive thru planning to be done for the day when my phone rang and Chris needed me down at Marietta to pick them up and bring them home - no biggie but Marietta seems a million miles away at 9 at night!  I did proceed to eat my supper on the way down while driving (not recommended - tacos are messy) anyway when I got down to the field I jumped out to brush off the taco leavings and must have lost my phone in the process but didn't realize it till I got back home - I had Lou call my phone thinking it would be in my truck (luckily it was on ring and not vibrate) but no luck, called Chris, who was still cutting beans - he walked around the area where I was, looked and called my phone but couldn't find it!  So after tearing my truck apart looking I decided to head back down there this morning to look - it went like this:

I take off and head down there somewhat panicked over losing it - it wasn't a fancy phone, I have had it probably 3 years - but it had all my contacts in it, some pictures and I knew how to use it - and might I add that this is the stupidest time of the year to lose a burnt orange phone - you have no idea how many crunchy dead leaves I have slammed my brakes on for thinking it was my phone!  And then panic set in and then I am crying - driving faster and crying harder - then I start to reason with myself:

For the love of God Jennifer Leigh (yes it required my first and middle name) it is not that big of deal - 1. the phone was old 2. you have never lost a phone before so it is not like a habit 3. you are not all that important the world will keep turning if you are out of contact for awhile 4. all your contacts were family and close friends it isn't like they were important business contacts that if lost you won't be able to make an income and feed your family.

So I start thinking of all the peoples numbers I have in my phone and that is when it hit me:

SPEED DIAL #5

and I drove faster and cried harder! 

#5 is my Dad's cell!  I had never taken his number out of my contacts or speed dial - just didn't seem necessary I guess - it was just there and somehow I guess I found comfort in it - but if I bought a new phone and started over there would be no reason to put it in and that made me uncomfortable - and I cried - I have cried a lot over losing Dad but I realized that when I cry I have been crying for others - I cry a lot for my Mom and I cry a lot for my brother but not for me so much - and today was for me - I realize that if I got a new phone I could of just an easily put his number in that phone but that just wasn't the same, it wouldn't be necessary, it would be down right silly - and he would of been the first person to say that - so that is when I had to use my first and middle name again -

Jennifer Leigh suck it up - it is just a phone and a phone number - get a hold of yourself!

So I flip the radio on and what the heck song is just starting but Zac Brown Band,  No Hurry - you have got to be kidding me - I love this song, I heard it for the first time on my way home from the hospital the day Dad died - it was fitting, there is one line in the song that fit my Dad perfectly:

'let the world go on without me I wouldn't have it any other way'

And yes I cried harder!

I looked for the phone in the field, grass lane between the fields, in the ditches on the way home!  Chris looked in the field, grass lane between the fields and the ditches on the way home!  My MIL looked in the field, grass lane between the fields and the ditches on the way home!

No one found it - and I realized that it was something I was going to have to get over - it wasn't going to make it less hard for him to be gone, it wasn't going to change anything, it was just a phone number and in the grand scheme of things it didn't really matter.

This afternoon we had soils practice and I decided to stop at the shop on my way to school and clean the trash out of my truck - as I am throwing stuff away I pick up the tied up Taco Bell bag of trash from last night and give it one last feel to just make sure my phone didn't get accidentally put in there AND there it was - and I was happy - happy to have my phone back, happy that I didn't have to re-enter my contacts and happy that my Dad's number is still speed dial #5 - I know it doesn't change anything or do any good but by having it there it is just one little piece of reality that I can still avoid for now - and I am OK with that!

CANCER SUCKS





October 4, 2012

An apple a day

keeps the dr. away!  Right!  Does it really matter that it is peeled, sliced, coated in sugar & cinnamon, topped with a buttery, sugary, oatmeal?????

It is still an apple!


It is apple season and I have two favorite apple recipes - Apple Crisp and the apple cookies I make!

Apples are interesting, there are so many different kinds, textures, flavors, colors - a few years ago the kids and I went to Apple Works in Trafalgar - our favorite orchard - and brought home 3 of each kind of apple!  When we got home we labled some papertowels with the name of each apple, sliced them up and we each tasted each apple, rated them and then compiled the data (I love when I can use big words) to determine our favorite kind of apple!

And the winner still today by an overwhelming 5 out of 5 likes:

JONATHON'S


It is about the only apple I buy - sometimes I buy the honey crisps (I think because I like the name) but there is always at least one complaint that "this isn't a Jonathon"!  The only thing I don't like about them is the skin feels kind of waxy, it gives me the heebie geebies but a good shining on my shirt takes care of that!

So anyway it has taken me years to find what I consider the perfect apple crisp recipe - I am a little picky about apple things - see I will eat an occasional apple (my MIL puts them in our field lunches and they make an awesome afternoon snack), I ADORE carmal apples with nuts - OK fine I adore the carmal & nuts but the apple and stick make an awesome carrier- and I like apple crisp and my apple cookies - BUT I strongly dislike applesauce, apple pie, apple juice, apple cider and fried apples!


This is a friend (Kim Lee) of a friend's (Emily) recipe - and I follow it to a T and even measure things Emily!  The only thing I change is that I always make twice the amount of crumbly, buttery, sugary, oatmeal topping because I love it so much!  I haven't tried this but I think if you had some apple cider you could use it in place of the water and it would be really good as well!




Kim Lee's Apple Crisp

6-7 apples, peeled, cored & sliced
toss the apples with 3/4 cup of white sugar & 1 tsp cinnamon

put into a 9X13 pan and top with:

crumbled mixture of - 3/4 cup flour
                                 1 cup brown sugar
                                 1/2 cup of oatmeal
                                 1/2 cup of softened butter

put a little bit of water in the bottom of the pan and bake at 325 degrees for 1 hour!

I made a half recipe last night at about 9pm and there wasn't even any left for breakfast this morning!



October 2, 2012

My Toothbrush!

This morning as I am brushing my teeth for the 2nd time in 3 hours I think to myself -

"Jent maybe you should buy yourself a new toothbrush and you really need to wipe down this bathroom counter"

truly that is what went thru my mind- what brought on this insanity and then proceeded to carry the thought even farther to a childhood memory you ask?

Well - I have a teeth brushing thing - I don't have the whitest teeth and yes I have cavity's (the silver kind that if you open your mouth can pick up radio reception) but I tend to brush my teeth about 6-7 times a day!  I have not always been this way, as a matter of fact I am positive my Mom had to say to me as a kid (just as I have had to say to mine on more than one occasion) "Have you bothered to brush your teeth at all this week?!"  But as an adult I brush them quite often -I am not weirdly obsessive about it but if it is convenient and I am home I brush my teeth after eating/drinking anything.  You might say it is part of my diet plan (I don't normally want to eat with clean teeth) that is if I had a diet plan which I obviously don't!

So Chris and I got back from Manning (for the second time) the end of last week - quick overnight trip to pick up the calves we bought a couple of weeks ago (totally different post) but anyway the point of this post is that Chris forgot his toothbrush!

We finally get to a hotel in Carroll Iowa for the night at about 11:30 and he is standing at the sink and he says "Well crap I forgot my toothbrush" I say 'just use mine' - gross or not that is just how it went!  He did and again the next morning and then informs me that my toothbrush is all 'wallered' out and 'soft' and that he would just as soon not brush his teeth as use mine!  My reaction was fine then don't, I happen to like my toothbrush!

But this morning as I was putting toothpaste on my brush I looked at my toothbrush and thought

"Jent maybe you should buy yourself a new toothbrush and you really need to wipe down this bathroom counter"

which then triggered a memory from my childhood!

My Mom uses toothbrushes to clean with and when we were kids if she needed one to clean something and didn't have one she would go in our bathroom look at our kids' toothbrushes and pick the one she thought needed replaced the most and take it to clean with - now she didn't tell us and we would discover this when we went to brush our teeth the next time - my Mom always has extra toothbrushes and so it was never a problem, as a matter of fact I know for certain if you went to her house right now, knocked on her door and asked for a toothbrush she could produce no less than 10 brand new still in the package toothbrushes for you to choose from!

The point of this story:

 PURE ENTERTAINMENT

AND A

PSA TO CHECK THE TOOTHBRUSHES IN YOUR HOUSEHOLD!


Thank you very much and have a great day!